I remember. I do. I used to write really good, engaging posts. I had something to say. And I said it well.
Then something happened.
What, exactly, I’m not sure.
But something happened.
I used to get an idea for a post and rush to get it written. Now, although I still get fabulous ideas, I forget them seemingly as soon as my mind thinks them up. They get lost in that vast, twisted darkness I call a mind, rattling around like a wayward pinball.
Until the idea resurfaces.
At exactly the wrong time.
When I’m not near a computer. Or I’m outside watching The Diva play. Or I’m on the phone. Or otherwise engaged. And I promise myself I won’t forget this time. I will finally write that post and share something deep, intellectual and substantive with my readers.
But it inevitably flutters away again, destined to be remembered at another inopportune moment.
Is it my age? I am bumping 40 {Dear God, did I just say I was going to be 40???}. Is it the fact that I have a rambunctious 5 year old and not any real time to myself? Did starting a graphics business suck the good writer right out of me?
I need to figure this out. I don’t want to say in 6 months “I used to be a pretty good writer, but…”. In 6 months I want to say “I am a good writer, but nobody knows it because I don’t have a huge following”. At least that is better than saying “used to be”.
I need to reorganize, rethink, re-something. I need to find my voice again. It seems as if it has laryngitis lately and I’m not sure a simple gargle with warm salt water will cure it this time.
In the meantime, I will continue to wander around half blind and directionless in the dark twisted place I call a brain.
Wish me luck.
You’re still a good writer – you’re just an unorganized one 🙂 Start carrying a little pad and pen around so you can jot stuff down. Or, I use the voice recorder on my iPhone sometimes so I don’t forget things.
The hardest part about being creative is that you can’t control when the creative bursts happen!!
I don’t own a cell phone. I’m old school, yo. LOL
And I have tried the pad and pen deal, but I always forget to bring it with me or I lose the actual pad I wrote on. Well in actuality, Ro usually takes it off my desk. LOL
Maybe it’s time to invest in a recording device then. Something small that will fit in a pocket or purse. Not sure what else to suggest…
Styxie,
It’s really more about not being able to get the idea out of my brain and into a post. Feeling like maybe it’s not good enough to write or it won’t get a good response…I have several posts half written but I just can’t seem to finish. There is something holding me back but I don’t know what it is. I think it’s partially why I can’t remember all the brilliant ideas I do get. It’s like as soon as the thought or idea forms, it vanishes into the ether. Like there is no way that thought can possibly be fleshed out into something coherent so my mind just erases it.
Been there, done that. Worse part is, if I don’t flesh them out and get them posted, everything just piles up behind it until the dam breaks (and sometimes it doesn’t even do that in a long time). Worse than writer’s block… I’ve dubbed it Writer’s Constipation. Rather hateful, but it does eventually pass.
Writer’s Constipation….LMAO You have named it aptly, my friend.
It happens to all of us. I get great ideas when I am nowhere near a computer but as soon as I sit down they all just disappear. I think it is my chair. 🙂
LOL I have had friends blame their desk chairs for sucking out their creativity. It may be true.
Maybe they need to put warnings on office chairs like they do ciggie packs?
“WARNING: User may notice reduced creativity and experience Writer’s Constipation. Proceed with caution.”
😀 Styxie!
I have this same problem. I used to be a better writer and I used to be funny. My funny fell out.
Maybe it’s like a normal blogger thing after a certain point that you have to push past…I dunno..
Your funny fell out…:P That is a great line!
I don’t know if it’s a bloggy ebb and flow or what, but it’s really annoying. As soon as you find your groove and get people that like you, you lose your voice.
OY.
This is why I took a break. I just didn’t feel like I had anything interesting to say. I’m slowly getting back into it, but honestly it’s been great to only blog when I feel like it and not have to worry about any PR or other stresses.
Yeah, didn’t we all get into blogging as a way to RELEASE our stress and have an outlet for it all?
Funny how it flipped the bitch on us, eh?
I am very glad you are back though, even on a limited basis.
LOL I’m thinking that we are sharing the same dark twisted place 🙂 because I feel the same way. I sit here and stare at open WordPress and think to myself, “OK I know what I want to write, but where the hack do I start!?!”
It feels like something weird is in the air this past few months!
Been there, done that. Got the freaking t-shirt. It’s a fun place, no? LOL
I know exactly what you are talking about. I always keep a notebook on me. And for the odd time I don’t or when it’s inconvenient I’ve been known to call myself and leave a message w/ my good idea. Luckily my iPhone has an ap where I can record voice memos and a note pad. This has been great for the middle of the night ideas!